Do you remember way back when I told you about my hopeless situation as the best friend wanting to be something more? Don't get all excited...nothing happened to further advance that ridiculousness, but I have to tell you that this particular individual and I have definitely gotten much closer than anticipated. And yes, the title says it all. He is copying my life. I know it's not intentional, but it's happening all the same. It started with Disney, and having the ambition to work there at the end of our college careers, but I suppose that's not really copying. Well, alright, maybe none of it is copying per say, but that's what it feels like. Then all of a sudden we were applying for the College Program and going the same semester, him for just the spring, me for the spring and summer. He eventually extended his program into the summer as well. Now we're back at school and I applied and was accepted to London for next semester. But wait, what does he tell me two days before the deadline to apply? He's keeping his options open and is applying to go to London next semester. BUT WAIT. Now today he started...wait for it...his own blog. Not even a blog for stupid silly stuff either, a legitimate blog, just like mine. It is IMPOSSIBLE that he reads mine or even knows about it...and besides it's on a different website.
But still. It's starting to be uncanny how many aspects of our life overlap, and it really doesn't make sense to me. Then again, our relationship never has to me. It can't be explained by definitive answers, formulas or equations, and that is what I hate about it. I can't put a label on it, and that's what makes it scary to me.
Okay, granted, it would be fun (and reassuring) to know someone abroad, because right now, there's no one I really know. I just wish my feelings for him weren't so complicated, because I'm always afraid they'll return in full force which causes me to be guarded nearly all the time, and it's exhausting.
It's time to sleep. I'll think about this more tomorrow. For now...
Rushing and racing
and running in circles
Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere
My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart
Save me
Somebody take my hand, and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down
Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear
In the blur of fast forward I faulter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere
All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart
Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down
Just show me
I need you to slow me down
The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down
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